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Name: Greg
Birthday: 3/9/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: RAIN, Music, Books, Music, Writing, Music, Peace, Music, Love, BASS, Herb, Atheism, The Beatles, Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin, The Eagles, The Allman Brothers, Bob Dylan, Simon and Garfunkle, Jimi Hendrix, Jefferson Airplane, Jethro Tull, The Who, Eric Clapton, B.B. King, Muddy Waters, Bob Marley, Queen, The Doors, AFI, Bad Religion, Eve 6, third eye blind, Bright Eyes, Deftones, Team Sleep, Factory 81, Relative ash, 36 crazyfists, Ill Nino, Incubus, The Mars Volta, Mudvayne, Killswitch Engage, Shadows Fall, Muse, R.E.M, Nirvana, A Perfect Circle, Soilwork, All That Remains, Tool, Rage Against the Machine, Sytem of a down, Eminem, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Thrice, Weezer, Wallflowers, Flown
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Member Since:
2/4/2004
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| Once again i find myself being swallowed by the mouth of desperation. I really really hate where my life is right now. I no longer wish to see my friends. I know once i do, it will feel as though my heart was ripped out, fed to me, then ripped from my stomach and shoved up my ass. All you guys can go to hell. I deleted my myspace, because i want to forget everybody, and start all over. while i can still write xanga without much notice. i need to go far far away, just disappear from the world i live in today. Leave all my so-called "family and friends" and feel alive again. Im surprised I let myself be controlled by the rut i fell in.
i guess thats all i had to say for the moment.
Yep, fuck you.
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everyone has some kind of expectation for you, but you never seem to meet it, and you dont want to meet it, but then you feel like shit for letting people down.
and some people just have to act like they're better than you because they follow the will of society. and they think they're smarter than you because you have a different view on how life should be lived
while some just have to act better than you, that have to act like they stand above you, and you cant say shit because they're older than you, or have a higher status in society.
and your mind is completely ripped between what you think you should do and what you feel you should do
and its like you have another brain inside your head tellin you the exact opposite of you first brain
and then you see society and how much complete crap it shoves in your face, and everyone looks down on you if you dont just accept it and meet its standards
while the people around you pressure you to do everything their way, according to their
idea of who you are
and nobody listens to anyone else
and sometimes it feels like everything would be a lot easier for the people around you if you just didnt exist.
just go to hell, i dont care, leave me alone, shoot me, ill do it myself, fuck you, fuck everyone, i dont need anyone to be happy, why cant people just try to be happy, i try everyday, but when life keeps shitting on you, you dont know how to fix anything, you might as well
fuck fuck fuck fuck, i dont even know how to explain myself, all i can keep saying is fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck, because thats how i feel, not like fucking, not like id like to fuck, but i feel like lifes big fuck
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| my heart has never hurt so much... but i guess its for the best. at least i can write here and no one will see, everyone forgot xanga long ago.
i hurt
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| well i dont know why but i havent been on xanga in ages, prolly because it was a fad for 6 months and then everyone forgot about it and all of a sudden myspace was way hipper... and you know me, gotta be hip... www.myspace.com/knottydredz
gotta be an emo scene kid (ha!).
i hate you all!
not really
your not so bad
actually... i probably love you
possibly
nah im kidding
i do hate you
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| Fuck religion... its just such bullshit... it aches my brain with frustration to see people so completely ignorant....
It doesnt help!... if you fuck up, then theres no asking for forgivness... its all you, you fucked up, and you have to fix it, you cant just pray and expect everything to be better, god doesnt hear you people.... he doesnt do anything, all that has been done was done by the power of the human mind, whcih has developed over millions of years.... how can anyone say evolution is not truth... when you can see to this day the proof of evolution in our society...
religion has been all but proven to be complete bullshit.... and yet over half of this great country's population is consumed by these shackles.... their fear of the unknown driving their blatant rejection of what is around us... leaning on a crutch of blind devotion... relying on a false support, a false sense of comfort...
each and everyone of us is alone within our minds... no one knows what your thinking and theres no god to care... its all you in there ... your all alone.... and every thought you have, every decision you make is the definition of god and satan .... its up to each individual to be able to take responsibility for their actions and yet have the ability to put our differing minds together for the purpose of peace, love, and prosperity...
im sorry if it was harsh, i dont mean to be a hypocrite and preach, but this is where i spill my thoughts when i feel this way...
"power corrupts... absolute power corrupts absolutley... god is all powerful, draw your own conclusions"
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